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anti-philippine marriage… LoL

September 16, 2008

I had scariest non-scary dream, I dreamt that I got married to a filipino and it scared the shit out of me. In my dream I was so inlove with this guy and married him, We were living with my parents house, I had a room of my own but me and my husband slept in the living room. I woke up the next day and panicked. I ran to my mom’s room, she woke up as I entered the room and saw my face filled with conffusion. I began to cry and told her the truth that I wanted “out” of my marriage. That I wasnt ready and she told me that I cant backout because it was already done. Then I told her that I dint sign the marriage cotract and I wasnt planning to sign it. My mom did not approve of what I said. Then I ran in my room crying and I called Roselle one of my oldest friend and told her everything, I was planning to leave the house and ran away and live with her for a while, my husband dint know her so I felt safe……then I woke up.

I’ve never been so shakened in my life, ( well, I did in one of my dreams ) but this was a diffrent kind of fear. LOLZ! I think I’ll never be ready to get married to a filipino. Not yet, not unless the Philippines have divorce. Waaaaaaaaaaa…. when will that ever happen grrrrr…

I have a thing about filipin marriage, it just really scares me; once your in one, you’ll be trapped all eternity LOL…When time comes that a couple stops loving each other what good is it to stay with each other? Its a misery trap if everything else fails, you’ll just have face the fact that you’ll never marry the nxt man you fall inlove with.

Marriage is suppose to mean working things out, but there are things that just fail to work out; what happens then? does it mean that you have no right to be happy again? does it mean you have to suffer for the rest of your life with just marrying the wrong choice? We are not perfect beings, the beauty of mistakes is that you learn from them, but what use is learning from mistakes if you dont have the chance to prove that you already know what to do next time???

Im still sleepy, I’m going back to bed, please please please let there be something nice to dream about.

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I'm kind of a laid-back person and I dont really believe in getting things the hard way. I mean if there's a better or easier way to get things done, why go through all the hoops?

Timing is everything, I don't rush things if the timing's not right, but when I have all the means to get something done I do it right away and finish it as soon as possible.

I'm not a morning person. I find my self hyper at night and drag myself to do stuff in the days. I like to do things in my own time; I hate pressure.

I've been working in japan since 2001, My japanese was good back then; Now that I've been living here since 2004 unemployed, I've been isolated with everybody else I know, beacuse of that I speak Japanese like a retarded 3 year old.

I find it hard to trust people, that's why I end up doing things all by myself and it is really exhausting. I hate this about myself.

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I woke early one morning The earth lay cool and still When suddenly a tiny bird Perched on my window sill, He sang a song so lovely So carefree and so gay, That slowly all my troubles Began to slip away He sang of far off places Of laughter and of fun, It seemed his very thrilling, brought up the morning sun. I stirred beneath the covers Crept slowly out of bed, Then gently shut the window And crushed his fucking head....I'm not a morning person.